Tuesday, March 20, 2007

Spring is Here!



Expect to have hope rekindled. Expect your prayers to be answered in wondrous ways. The dry seasons in life do not last. The spring rains will come again.

Unknown


Happy Spring! Today is the first day of spring and I pray that along with the beautiful flowers and weather it brings that it brings good health and happiness to all!It has been a beautiful day here - a little breezy but beautiful! We are off to a good start!

After feeling like things were kind of "funny" between my daughter and I the last few days, we had a great night last night and things are fine. As she often tells me "I am just paranoid."! I am so blessed to have her and I thank God every day for her.

I pray for my friend who is having lots of health problems and marital problems. I just pray for her peace and health. Wish I could do something more for her but I hope she knows that I am there for her if she needs me.

I hope your Spring is off to a good start!

Wednesday, March 14, 2007

TOMORROW WILL BE A BETTER DAY!

It has been beautiful outside the last few days - about 70 degrees! Much different from last week when we had 6 inches of snow on the ground! Don't think the 70 degree weather is going to last but spring is on its way!

I just wish my health would be so beautiful! It has been a rough for days. Feel like I am on the downhill slide again and it is so frustrating. I just don't understand why I can't stay well! I am trying not to get discouraged but honestly it has been tough the last few days. I have not been in the best of moods - just ask my daughter! I am trying to keep upbeat but some days that isn't so easy!

I didn't get to go to my HopeKeepers meeting tonight. Just too weak and my eyes to blurry and having too much trouble breathing! That really frustrated me because we only meet every 2 weeks and I was really looking forward to going. Debra called me and wanted to come over and pray for me and I didn't even feel like having her over. She prayed for me over the phone and that meant a lot.

Well, I guess enough for being down today. Tomorrow is another day and I just know it will be better!

Saturday, March 10, 2007

GOD KNOWS THE PLAN!



I went to dinner last night with Debra. I really enjoyed it but had to leave rather abruptly because I couldn't breath very well. I am trying to come down off the prednisone and it is really causing problems. I am trying to tough it out because I really need to get off this drug, but my body is really fighting it. I just pray that I make it through this weekend without having to call the doctor.

As frustrated as I get with my illness and the inability to stay well, I have to believe that even if I don't understand why, God has a reason for all of this.

"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you., plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11 NIV

Tuesday, March 6, 2007

PRAISE GOD FOR HIS WONDEROUS WORKS!!

Somedays, like the last few days, it is really hard to feel good about much of anything when my body is feeling as bad as it is. But then I think about the fact that God made me in His wonderful way and I praise Him! I may not understand why He made my body the way He did, but I praise Him for his wonderous works!


You made all the delicate, inner parts of my body and knit me together in my mother's womb.

Thank you for making me so wonderfully complex! Your workmanship is marvelous—and how well I know it.

You watched me as I was being formed in utter seclusion, as I was woven together in the dark of the womb.

You saw me before I was born. Every day of my life was recorded in your book. Every moment was laid out before a single day had passed.

Psalm 139:13-16 NLT

Sunday, March 4, 2007

WHAT IS NORMAL WHEN IT COMES TO HEALTH?

Not feeling great today. Tried to go to church - actually did go but had to leave. My eyes started to shut on me. They haven't done that in a while but I could feel it coming. They are open somewhat now but not all the way and I just in general feel tired. I was very disappointed and discouraged because I really wanted to go. I met Debra and her husband Don there and church had just started when I could feel it coming on. Debra was very sweet - came out and prayed for me and then called me after church to check on me. At least I know I have a friend here now!

But even when things seem to be at their worst, God is always there. I was searching the internet for devotions and came across this one which I feel couldn't be more appropriate for today - or my life in general! God truly is awesome!


What’s normal?
By John Fischer

“Grace must wound before it can heal.” — Flannery O’Conner

There are two schools of thought when it comes to the problem of pain. One says: “Sometimes the going will get tough, and in those times you need to remember that your faith will get you through and something good will come out of hardship. Hang in there, this will soon be over.” The other would be: “Get use to it. Pain, suffering, and hardship are necessary for growth. They will be constant companions to those who desire to know and love God deeply. Get ready for the long haul. If you’re feeling good and life is relatively painless, that’s the abnormal experience, not the norm. Enjoy it, but don’t expect it.”

These perspectives present what appears to be subtle differences, when, in fact, they have huge ramifications for the follower of Christ. One says that suffering is a glitch on the spiritual map, a storm one can weather, a malfunction easily corrected with a certain degree of patience and determination. This perspective believes that there exists a “normal” state for a believer that is relatively comfortable and risk-free. But in reality, this perspective is unbiblical and actually lines up more with a culture that treats discomfort as something we deserve to have alleviated. Multi-billion dollar industries are dedicated to creating and maintaining this myth, and convincing us all that the good life is attainable with, of course, the help of the product being touted. In other words, “normal” is just around the corner.

The other perspective is much more in keeping with reality and the belief that our real purposes go way beyond this life and this present darkness. It is a perspective that expects hardship and pain to be a part of the day-to-day program. If we are waiting for anything, we are waiting for eternity with Christ, not for everything to get better here on earth. We have learned that trials are such an integral part of our growing life in Christ that we even welcome trouble when it comes our way, because we know that by it, our faith is found worthy of being tested and our endurance will have a chance to grow (James 1:2-3).

This is not about being pessimistic. It’s about being realistic and learning how to find joy in the midst of even the most difficult things. Getting “normal” right is half the battle.

“God's way of making us right with himself depends on faith. As a result, I can really know Christ and experience the mighty power that raised him from the dead. I can learn what it means to suffer with him, sharing in his death, so that, somehow, I can experience the resurrection from the dead.” (Philippians 3:10-11 NLT)

Through all my illness, I truly know that God is with me!

Saturday, March 3, 2007

STARTING TO FEEL LIKE HOME!!

It has been a pretty good few days. I went to the HopeKeepers meeting Wednesday and really enjoyed it. I really didn't feel like going, had decideded NOT to go, but God kicked me out of my chair about 15 minutes before the meeting and made me go! I am glad He did and glad I listened to him. I met Debra and Barb and really enjoyed talking to them and getting to know them. I had dinner with Debra tonight and really enjoyed getting out and having some company!

I went to see my neurologist today. He is going to try to cut down on my prednisone a little. I am glad but at the same time, I get really nervous. Everytime we try to go down on the dosage, I start having trouble breathing. He is going to take it real slow so hopefully things will go well. It usually takes about 5 days or so before I can really tell if I am going to have problems. Hopefully not this time! I was supposed to be on this drug for about 3 weeks and it has been 10 years!!! Time to get off of it - the side-effects are horrible! Hopefully this is the time!!

I am really starting to feel at home more and more here in Morgantown and become more convinced everyday that I made the right decision in moving here. God really led me here, every step of the way. He is so awesome!! I am starting to make friends and feel like I really do have people who care - and who I care about! Even though I have friends in other places, it feels so good to start having friends here and feel like I belong! God's love is truly unbelievable!

~~Never Silent~~

A loving heart, a gentle smile, a warm and tender touch
We give so many things in life but nothing means as much.

A little inspiration when one loses hope,
A kind word of encouragement when they no longer seem to cope
A simple phrase, "I love you"when no one else is there
Taking hold onto a hand in a little heartfelt prayer.

Love is never silent. It has so much to say,
And it is our greatest blessing when we give it all away

Author Unknown